today is the day... perhaps the last time..
where im going get back my dearies and da princess cushion
and also finally give him what he deserves with my first pay

after that.. i no longer know...

wish me luck, give me strength..

LADY GAGA - BAD ROMANCE

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah!
Mum-mum-mum-mum-mah!
GaGa-oo-la-la!
Want your bad romance

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah!
Mum-mum-mum-mum-mah!
GaGa-oo-la-la!
Want your bad romance

I want your ugly
I want your disease
I want your everything
As long as it's free
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love

I want your drummer
The touch of your healing
I want you leather dirty kiss in the scene
And I want your love
You know that I want you
Love-love-love
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love

You know that I want you
And you know that I need you
I want it bad
Bad and bad

I want your loving
And I want your revenge
You and me put on a bad romance
I want your loving
All your love is revenge
You and me put on a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah!
Mum-mum-mum-mum-mah!
GaGa-oo-la-la!
Want your bad romance

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah!
Mum-mum-mum-mum-mah!
GaGa-oo-la-la!
Want your bad romance

I want your horror
I want your design
'Cause you're a criminal
As long as your mine
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love

I want your psycho
You're burning this stick
Want you in my room
When your baby is sick
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love

You know that I want you
And you know that I need you
I want it bad
Bad and bad

I want your loving
And I want your revenge
You and me put on a bad romance
I want your loving
All your love is revenge
You and me put on a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah!
Mum-mum-mum-mum-mah!
GaGa-oo-la-la!
Want your bad romance

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah!
Mum-mum-mum-mum-mah!
GaGa-oo-la-la!
Want your bad romance

Work-work fashion baby
Work it
Work the bitch crazy
Work-work fashion baby
Work it
Work the bitch crazy
Work-work fashion baby
Work it
Work the bitch crazy
Work-work fashion baby
Work it
Work the bitch crazy

I want your love
And I want your revenge
I want your love
I don't wanna be friends

Said I want your love
And I want your revenge
I want your love
I don't wanna be friends

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

I want your loving
And I want your revenge
You and me put on a bad romance
I want your loving
All your love is revenge
You and me put on a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah!
Mum-mum-mum-mum-mah!
GaGa-oo-la-la!
Want your bad romance

i dont really like it when my friends are picking up the pieces for him
i mean im BURDENING my kind frens, even my boss.. they are great... picking up pieces for the guy who really should have helped but didnt bother enough to help at all.. I have great friends but they really shouldnt be worried and constantly weigh down and pull down by me.. if i have a choice, i really wish i could stop bringing trouble to people and shut myself out of this world out of all the pain out of whatever i cant managed.. shut myself out of this

please..

it would nvr stop, no matter how hard and how much she tried. left with no choice, she has got to hide it instead. Hiding it carefully cautiously but hope that one day it would disappear. she need ten new ones to bury that one old one. if ten is ever enough.

my painful memory

when u hit the rock bottom, the only place apparently u can go is up!

i hate myself!

i hate myself..

reminds me of the song, i hate myself for loving you... ya... i dont exactly hate myself for that.. i made my choice, i suffer, i deserve it.. but how to get up? i can't.. kill me!! please! ive been living in the hell for so long le.. i wonder how long more could i take it.. sorry.. i hate myself for being so weak too.. i hate it