today is the day... perhaps the last time..
where im going get back my dearies and da princess cushion
and also finally give him what he deserves with my first pay

after that.. i no longer know...

wish me luck, give me strength..

LADY GAGA - BAD ROMANCE

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah!
Mum-mum-mum-mum-mah!
GaGa-oo-la-la!
Want your bad romance

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah!
Mum-mum-mum-mum-mah!
GaGa-oo-la-la!
Want your bad romance

I want your ugly
I want your disease
I want your everything
As long as it's free
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love

I want your drummer
The touch of your healing
I want you leather dirty kiss in the scene
And I want your love
You know that I want you
Love-love-love
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love

You know that I want you
And you know that I need you
I want it bad
Bad and bad

I want your loving
And I want your revenge
You and me put on a bad romance
I want your loving
All your love is revenge
You and me put on a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah!
Mum-mum-mum-mum-mah!
GaGa-oo-la-la!
Want your bad romance

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah!
Mum-mum-mum-mum-mah!
GaGa-oo-la-la!
Want your bad romance

I want your horror
I want your design
'Cause you're a criminal
As long as your mine
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love

I want your psycho
You're burning this stick
Want you in my room
When your baby is sick
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love

You know that I want you
And you know that I need you
I want it bad
Bad and bad

I want your loving
And I want your revenge
You and me put on a bad romance
I want your loving
All your love is revenge
You and me put on a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah!
Mum-mum-mum-mum-mah!
GaGa-oo-la-la!
Want your bad romance

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah!
Mum-mum-mum-mum-mah!
GaGa-oo-la-la!
Want your bad romance

Work-work fashion baby
Work it
Work the bitch crazy
Work-work fashion baby
Work it
Work the bitch crazy
Work-work fashion baby
Work it
Work the bitch crazy
Work-work fashion baby
Work it
Work the bitch crazy

I want your love
And I want your revenge
I want your love
I don't wanna be friends

Said I want your love
And I want your revenge
I want your love
I don't wanna be friends

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

I want your loving
And I want your revenge
You and me put on a bad romance
I want your loving
All your love is revenge
You and me put on a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah!
Mum-mum-mum-mum-mah!
GaGa-oo-la-la!
Want your bad romance

i dont really like it when my friends are picking up the pieces for him
i mean im BURDENING my kind frens, even my boss.. they are great... picking up pieces for the guy who really should have helped but didnt bother enough to help at all.. I have great friends but they really shouldnt be worried and constantly weigh down and pull down by me.. if i have a choice, i really wish i could stop bringing trouble to people and shut myself out of this world out of all the pain out of whatever i cant managed.. shut myself out of this

please..

it would nvr stop, no matter how hard and how much she tried. left with no choice, she has got to hide it instead. Hiding it carefully cautiously but hope that one day it would disappear. she need ten new ones to bury that one old one. if ten is ever enough.

my painful memory

when u hit the rock bottom, the only place apparently u can go is up!

i hate myself!

i hate myself..

reminds me of the song, i hate myself for loving you... ya... i dont exactly hate myself for that.. i made my choice, i suffer, i deserve it.. but how to get up? i can't.. kill me!! please! ive been living in the hell for so long le.. i wonder how long more could i take it.. sorry.. i hate myself for being so weak too.. i hate it

I TRY I TRY

I TRY I TRY I TRY

am I trying too hard?

Happy - Leona Lewis

Someone once told me that you have to choose
What you win or lose
You can't have everything
Don't cha take chances
Might feel the pain
Don't cha love in vain
Cause love won't set you free
I could stand by the side
And watch this life pass me by
So unhappy
But safe as could be

Chorus:
So what if it hurts me?
So what if i break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear myself
Don't care about all the pain in front of me
Cause i'm just trying to be happy, yeah
Just wanna be happy, yeah


Holding on tightly
Just can't let it go
Just trying to play my role
Slowly disappear, ohh
All these days i feel like they're the same
Just different faces, different names
Get me outta here
I can't stand by your side, ohh no
Watch this life pass me by, pass me by

Chorus:
So what if it hurts me?
So what if i break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear myself
Don't care about all the pain in front of me
Cause i'm just trying to be happy, ohh, happy, ohh

Bridge:
So and it's just that i can't see
The kind of stranger on this road
But don't say victim
Don't say anything

Chorus:
So what if it hurts me?
So what if i break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear myself
Don't care about all the pain in front of me

Outro:
I just wanna be happy
Ohh, yeah, happy, ohh, happy
I just wanna be, ohh
I just wanna be happy
Ohh, happy

i cry myself to sleep everynite

Indifference

Indifference ---> I can't stand it! Why?

How is ur new yr 2010?

like a blink of eyes...13 days passed...
Hope urs is great =)

im too busy with Facebook, Twitter and new work to update here..

but i will try..

Loves,
Stranger

oh why

Stop taking me for granted!

I cannot be always here for you ONLY when u need me.. i want to be there for you but what about you? I'm not a puppet or a toy.. i dont mind giving more but receiving less but how less is less? less or nothing?

Why do I feel so unimportant to you when u are the most important to me?

Why are you always finding excuses and only interested to play?

Why are u so keen in hurting me and testing my patience? I can snap you know, I really can.

im having a badhair day!

yeap on a poor sulky monday,
im having a badhair day!

haiz how great! blueyyyyyy!

another wedding dinner

another one of da good friends got married..

happy for her

alot of weddings this year... even next Jan also got one wedding booking alrdy...

I hope all my good friends who want to be married, would get married and live happily ever after! =)

I love Beckham!

Why I love him?
Here goes:

''There has been far too much talk about diving,'' said Beckham. ''No-one wants to see it and it is disappointing when it happens. But it happens every week and Eduardo is not the first person to have done it. The whole thing should be put to bed.

http://soccernet.espn.go.com/news/story?id=674100&sec=worldcup2010&cc=4716

See See See! Sensible Beckham! Alot of pple dive what... that former Man U's Ronaldo is also ALWAYS diving... Last time Rudd Van Horse is also always diving... Just that they didnt get caught.. stop saying Ecuardo la... Get over it!...

Happier note:

3 Cheers over Dunga for winning my (and their) ARCH rivals Argentina! weeeee... happy!

Have u all watched The Proposal alrdy?

I loved it. No wonder I find Ryan Reynolds so super cute and familiar, ya... Scarlett Johansson's- (the number 1 sexy babe)'s husband.. He is her hubby!

No wonder they say the good guys all taken... see! proven..

Anyway, the plot is still quite predictable and old fashion la.. but i still like it.

I've always prefer Sandra Bullock's films than Julia Roberts.. heh!

Catch it!

My New Love!!! =)

overdue photos

on another weddin-dinner day~~~~: