heartache 101

I remembered 2-3 yrs ago, I was going through a massive heartache, those kind so bad I literally wanna die and see no tomorrow.... I even sourced how to die, it was really vitally bad!!! no joke... so if u ever encounter this kind of unfortunate dark event in life, *touchwood* and please come to me and don't be alone!
FOC, FOC! I'll help u..


so now, I decided to pen down that 123s for the fragile broken hearts in any case.


Heartache 123:


Step 1) Seek help
Acknowledge u have a problem and seek help. No one can perform any miracles to help u, so the help is actually still that listening ear and yes, that shoulder to cry on. That much. However if u don't seek help and u seek death, u r so doomed. so I'll rather u go for the first. U can pour out all ur rantings, sorrow and tears, and then hopefully feel 0.00001% better after confiding. Better than nothing really. Of coz, friends might add in those typical words of wisdom and whatever logical theories 101 also. If u can listen, listen and be motivated. If u can't, u r VERY normal, heart matters where got logic, where won't pain, where got rationale? don't be too hard on yourself. and also, u don't have to listen entirely to what friends tell you to do, they are not you afterall. theory 101 also include no one can help u but yourself, thus gist of it is to remember to try pick urself up when seeking help.


Step 2) Find peace
Find that inner peace in ur innate soul and self. not only the mind. don't go out and blame the whole world except yourself. and vice versa, don't put all the blame on yourself. things don't work out means values and opinions and feelings and desires are mismatch and misunderstood. no one is to be blamed or should be solely responsible. no rights & no wrongs. don't hate. don't be bitter. don't dwell. pointless


Step 3) Move on
the bravest step is to move on, but moving forward is really for no one but yourself, thus, don't deceive yourself when u r not ready yet. Don't ask me what is moving on and how to move on, for everyone's problems/ scenarios and paths are different. for some, it's just not dwelling and forgeting, for some it's going for someone else, for some it can be more drastic. No need to plunge into recovery, no need to be forceful. Route to recovery is never that easy or that straight forward. It may come sooner for some and later for others. No fear!.. Importantly, make sure your moving on is for a positive cause. not for revenge, not for other people, not for any kind of excuses that u will ever look back and regret.


3 steps seems simple in words but it will take a whole lot more than that. Alotalotalotalotalotalotalotalotalotalot more, I know, trust me, no one knows better.
Frankly, I think no one ever deserves to go through all these shit. Hope you guys will never ever need to be in this plight.


XOXO


p/s: one of the 101 theories pple like to tell me and I dislike the most cum can nvr adhere is: "Love urself more"
I'm not born this way nor structured this way. if I ever become like that, I'm not me anymore. bleah