I love my Daddy and I hope he knows it

I love my Daddy... but I've never told him before.

And you know what, it's not surprising at all. Looking at him, it's like looking at myself. We are very much alike, in terms of character. All inherited from him.. We are never that expressive and affectionate on the surface towards the family members and each other, but deep down, we are madly attached. He never tell me he love me before too, but I know he does. I hope he knows about mine too.... alot, alot.

To me, it's the feelings, care and actions, not about declaring to the whole world by telling him how much you care bout him and speaking up means u win.
For example, if he noticed I have not eaten, he would not ask me if I'm hungry, but like casually telling me there's food in the kitchen or pretending to want go find food himself but I know it's for me. We are never that direct. I'm like that too. I always pretend pretend bring home stuff and hope he eats more and its all for him. So we actually care alot alot, but not by asking, its the unspoken type. I'm the same towards my brother and maybe my mother. Its inherited so don't ask me why so woody... My mother is the opposite though, always expressive and outspoken, if you never asked about her, she would think that u don't care and misunderstand! then maybe she would think u r horrible since u don't care.. i dont think she can ever feel the hidden care behind some actions unless u spell it out... butbutbut daddy and me are shaped the other way leh.. we would never spell it out directly... i hope she really understand it eventually... i don't know about my brother though, sometimes he's like my father alot too, but there are also times hes as expressive as the mother... in between maybe

Having said all that, this lousy inexpressive character of mine above doesn't really applies to my relationships and friends outside.. maybe its the culture over years and the people influences on me, I'm all about telling my boyfriend how much I love him and always seeking that sort of attention back.. Same as telling my friends I love them and I care for them. Why can't I do that to Daddy Tan and bro Tan ah? it's just so different and weird if I do it... Shrugs!