my painful memory

when u hit the rock bottom, the only place apparently u can go is up!

i hate myself!

i hate myself..

reminds me of the song, i hate myself for loving you... ya... i dont exactly hate myself for that.. i made my choice, i suffer, i deserve it.. but how to get up? i can't.. kill me!! please! ive been living in the hell for so long le.. i wonder how long more could i take it.. sorry.. i hate myself for being so weak too.. i hate it

I TRY I TRY

I TRY I TRY I TRY

am I trying too hard?

Happy - Leona Lewis

Someone once told me that you have to choose
What you win or lose
You can't have everything
Don't cha take chances
Might feel the pain
Don't cha love in vain
Cause love won't set you free
I could stand by the side
And watch this life pass me by
So unhappy
But safe as could be

Chorus:
So what if it hurts me?
So what if i break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear myself
Don't care about all the pain in front of me
Cause i'm just trying to be happy, yeah
Just wanna be happy, yeah


Holding on tightly
Just can't let it go
Just trying to play my role
Slowly disappear, ohh
All these days i feel like they're the same
Just different faces, different names
Get me outta here
I can't stand by your side, ohh no
Watch this life pass me by, pass me by

Chorus:
So what if it hurts me?
So what if i break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear myself
Don't care about all the pain in front of me
Cause i'm just trying to be happy, ohh, happy, ohh

Bridge:
So and it's just that i can't see
The kind of stranger on this road
But don't say victim
Don't say anything

Chorus:
So what if it hurts me?
So what if i break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear myself
Don't care about all the pain in front of me

Outro:
I just wanna be happy
Ohh, yeah, happy, ohh, happy
I just wanna be, ohh
I just wanna be happy
Ohh, happy

i cry myself to sleep everynite

Indifference

Indifference ---> I can't stand it! Why?

How is ur new yr 2010?

like a blink of eyes...13 days passed...
Hope urs is great =)

im too busy with Facebook, Twitter and new work to update here..

but i will try..

Loves,
Stranger

oh why

Stop taking me for granted!

I cannot be always here for you ONLY when u need me.. i want to be there for you but what about you? I'm not a puppet or a toy.. i dont mind giving more but receiving less but how less is less? less or nothing?

Why do I feel so unimportant to you when u are the most important to me?

Why are you always finding excuses and only interested to play?

Why are u so keen in hurting me and testing my patience? I can snap you know, I really can.

im having a badhair day!

yeap on a poor sulky monday,
im having a badhair day!

haiz how great! blueyyyyyy!

another wedding dinner

another one of da good friends got married..

happy for her

alot of weddings this year... even next Jan also got one wedding booking alrdy...

I hope all my good friends who want to be married, would get married and live happily ever after! =)

I love Beckham!

Why I love him?
Here goes:

''There has been far too much talk about diving,'' said Beckham. ''No-one wants to see it and it is disappointing when it happens. But it happens every week and Eduardo is not the first person to have done it. The whole thing should be put to bed.

http://soccernet.espn.go.com/news/story?id=674100&sec=worldcup2010&cc=4716

See See See! Sensible Beckham! Alot of pple dive what... that former Man U's Ronaldo is also ALWAYS diving... Last time Rudd Van Horse is also always diving... Just that they didnt get caught.. stop saying Ecuardo la... Get over it!...

Happier note:

3 Cheers over Dunga for winning my (and their) ARCH rivals Argentina! weeeee... happy!

Have u all watched The Proposal alrdy?

I loved it. No wonder I find Ryan Reynolds so super cute and familiar, ya... Scarlett Johansson's- (the number 1 sexy babe)'s husband.. He is her hubby!

No wonder they say the good guys all taken... see! proven..

Anyway, the plot is still quite predictable and old fashion la.. but i still like it.

I've always prefer Sandra Bullock's films than Julia Roberts.. heh!

Catch it!

My New Love!!! =)

overdue photos

on another weddin-dinner day~~~~:

Nice accessories, go look look =)

http://www.plingstore.com/

U wanna buy something for me from there also can ;P heeeheee

MJ's favourite

Smile

Smile though your heart is aching
Smile even though its breaking
When there are clouds in the sky, you'll get by
If you smile with your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll find that life is still worthwhile

If you just
Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying?
You'll find that life is still worthwhile

If you just
Smile though your heart is aching
Smile even though its breaking
When there are clouds in the sky, you'll get by
If you smile through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile

that's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying?
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile


"A day without a laugh is a wasted day." - Charles Chaplin

I miss MJ so much! =(

Ooh ooh ooh aah
Gotta make a change
For once in my life
It's gonna feel real good
Gonna make a difference
Gonna make it right

As I turned up the collar on
A favorite winter coat
This wind is blowin' my mind
I see the kids in the street
With not enough to eat
Who am I to be blind
Pretending not to see their needs

A summer's disregard
A broken bottle top
And a one man's soul
They follow each other
On the wind ya' know
'Cause they got nowhere to go
That's why I want you to know

I'm starting with the man in the mirror
I'm asking him to change his ways
And no message could have been any clearer
If you wanna make the world a better place
Take a look at yourself and then make a change, yey
Na na na, na na na, na na na na oh ho

I've been a victim of
A selfish kinda love
It's time that I realize
There are some with no home
Not a nickel to loan
Could it be really pretending that they're not alone

A willow deeply scarred
Somebody's broken heart
And a washed out dream
(Washed out dream)
They follow the pattern of the wind ya' see
'Cause they got no place to be
That's why I'm starting with me

I'm starting with the man in the mirror
I'm asking him to change his ways
And no message could have been any clearer
If you wanna make the world a better place
Take a look at yourself and then make a change

I'm starting with the man in the mirror
I'm asking him to change his ways
And no message could have been any clearer
If you wanna make the world a better place
Take a look at yourself and then make that change

I'm starting with the man in the mirror
(Man in the mirror, oh yeah)
I'm asking him to change his ways, yeah
(Change)
No message could have been any clearer
If you wanna make the world a better place
Take a look at yourself and then make the change
You gotta get it right, while you got the time
'Cause when you close your heart
(You can't close your, your mind)
Then you close your mind

(That man, that man, that man)
(That man, that man, that man)
(With the man in the mirror, oh yeah)
(That man you know, that man you know)
(That man you know, that man you know)
I'm asking him to change his ways
(Change)
No message could have been any clearer
If you wanna make the world a better place
Take a look at yourself then make that change

(Na na na, na na na, na na na na)
Ooh
Oh yeah
Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
(Na na na, na na na, na na na na)

Oh no
Oh no, I'm gonna make a change
It's gonna feel real good
Sure mon
(Change)
Just lift yourself
You know, you got to stop it yourself
(Yeah)
Oh
Make that change
(I gotta make that change today, oh)
(Man in the mirror)
You got to, you got to not let yourself, brother oh
Yeah
You know that
(Make that change)
(I gotta make that make me then make)
You got, you got to move
Sure mon, sure mon
You got to
(Stand up, stand up, stand up)
Make that change
Stand up and lift yourself, now
(Man in the mirror)
Make that change
(Gonna make that change, sure mon)
(Man in the mirror)
You know it, you know it, you know it, you know
(Change)
Make that change

same old stuffs

This month I will be (already am) super broke leh!..
got to pay school fees! frens wedding dinner x 2, fren birthday and also last chance to grab things i REALLY really want from the GSS..

I shall not spend anymore unnecessary money!

have been trying to upload some pictures from my hp leh.. but always forgot.. so lazy leh me... shall upload pics soon!

Tribute to our "King of Pop".. "Pop Music Legend"

I can't believe Michael Jackson has died.. really sad... was hoping it was a prank, or or error, or some sick joke or something when I heard the news... too bad it wasn't =(








Deepest condolences to his family and all of the fans around the world who loved him..
the brilliant musician of all times...
Michael Jackson (August 29, 1958 – June 25, 2009)

65 questions too long! let me jus do 40... =P

65 questions (cut short by me! muahahaha):
1. First thing you wash in the shower?
Hair
2. What colour is your favourite hoodie?
purple?
3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
of coz!
4. Do you plan outfits?
sort of
5. How are you feeling RIGHT now?
Good!
6. What’s the closest thing to you that’s red?
an apple looking coaster
7. Tell me about the last dream you remember having.
Mr N loh.. the sweetest weird dream
8. Did you meet anybody new today?
nope
9. What are you craving right now?
my dark chocolates in the drawers
10. Do you floss daily?
nope
11.What comes to mind when I say cabbage?
nothing leh
12. Are you emotional?
moderate
13. Have you ever counted to 1,000?
no leh... so long!
14. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick?
bite more
15. Do you like your hair?
yes i do.. more healthier than 3 yrs back
16. Do you like yourself?
most of the times
17. Would you go out to eat with George W. Bush?
stressful leh... but okie loh
18. What are you listening to right now?
(i've had) the time of my life - bill medley and jennifer warnes (from dirty dancing mst)
19. Are your parents strict?
nope
20. Would you go sky diving?
yes if its free
21. Do you like cottage cheese?
yes bah
22. Have you ever met a celebrity?
got ah
23. Do you rent movies often?
used to
24. Is there anything sparkly in the room you’re in?
no
25. How many countries have you visited?
5?
26. Have you made a prank phone call?
yes.. ages ago k?
27. Ever been on a train?
yes
28. Brown or white eggs?
whats brown whats white? white is salted eggs? or egg white?
29.Do you have a cell/mobile phone?
yes
30. Do you use chopsticks?
yes.
31. Do you own a gun?
no
32. Can you use chopsticks?
yes
33. Who are you going to be with tonight?
no one.. unless the nasi lemak falls thru.. havent confirm yet
34. Are you too forgiving?
not sure
35. Ever been in love?
ya of coz!
36. What is/are your best friend(s) doing tomorrow?
working
37. Ever had cream puffs?
yes
38. Last time you cried?
muahaha.. over some tv drama!
39. What was the last question you asked?
when can u finish that?
40. Favourite time of the year?
december

dreams

I'm happily in love, in love in love!



butbutbut hor... I still get weird dreams... (not wet dreams!) I dreamt Mr N holding my hands and cleaning and wiping my back for me.. eeeeksss... hahaha it sound kind of gross but actually I remembered Mr N was kind of sweet.. butbutbut he's not my bf leh!!! I'm very loyal one leh!! I would NEVER EVER let any male touch me like that loh! will slap him hard man if its in real life! very weird hor... too bad I really can't control my dreams..


(Mr N is not someone I know or fancy who I've only seen him for about 5 times)

random updates.. updates random

Have u watched "Drag me to Hell"?
its gross loh.. but okie lah... long time nvr watch shows like this le.. it's abit like The Skeleton Key or " Emily Rose" kind (don't remember the exact title)... watch only if u r couragous..
totally can't stand the malay guys squealing beside me.. so funny, scared still wanna watch then was discussing so loudly beside me.. LOL..

butbutbut.. it does makes me feel grateful to simple little things in life..
like the female lead, we seems to have it all, a career, a bf, a decent life so let's enjoy every tiny bit of it and not be so greedy and ungrateful all the time.. i may not be rich but im not exactly poor, i may not be married but i have perfect dating moments, i may not have a wonderful job but i do have a decent one.. i may not have a lot of besties, but i have a couple of nice friends..

oh ya... sometimes i do get impatient with friends who I cared for but doesn't seems to care for u back.. it's true we don't give for the sake of taking back something in return.. buddies should not be calculative and petty.. but however, what if u actually feel there's nothing to take at all sometimes?.. have u all forgotten how to care for ur friends or it was just purely a one-sided wishful thingy and we won't exactly that good friends?

oh yaya.. i was complaining the other day i dont have anymore holiday plans leh... howhowhowhow?
no holiday plans means nothing to look forward to leh! haizzzz... let me plan something soon!??!

no boundaries

I love it... by Kris Allen or Adam Lambert


Seconds, hours, so many days
You know what you want, but how long can you wait?
Every moment last forever.
When you feel you've lost your way.

What if my chances were already gone?
I started believing that I could be wrong.
But you give me one good reason.
To fight and never walk away.

So here I am, still holding on

With every step, you climb another mountain
Every breath, it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain, weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing.

Just when you think the road is going nowhere
Just when you almost gave up on your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can
There are no boundaries.
There are no boundaries.

I fought to the limit, to stand on the edge
What if today is as good as it gets?
Don't know where the future's heading
But nothing's gonna bring me down
I've jumped every bridge and I've run every line
I risked being safe but I always knew why
I always knew why

So here I am, still holding on

With every step, you climb another mountain
Every breath, it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain, weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing

Just when you think the road is going nowhere
Just when you almost gave up on your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can

You can go higher, you can go deeper
There are no boundaries above and beneath you
Break every rule 'cause there's nothing between you
And your dreams

With every step, you climb another mountain
Every breath, it's harder to believe

Yeah, there are no boundaries
There are no boundaries

With every step, you climb another mountain
Every breath, it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain, weather the hurricanes

There are no boundaries.
There are no boundaries.
There are no boundaries.

''Football is enjoyment first, no matter what is at stake,'' Wenger said.

Cross our fingers for good luck!

Anyway, I got free tickets to X-men Origins Wolverine last Sunday.
Wow! it was good. Didn't know Hugh Jackman is so sexy... hahaha
but too frictional lahz... Now is back to work, back to the cold cold world.. just got some news which i cant reveal here... wish me luck ya!

Cheers,
Stranger

im back =)

I always knew that only the ones closest to you can hurt you the most..
but if that's the case, why let anyone near? why not be alone?
we hurt and we love,
we grow as we fall,
why ask why? just go with your true gut feel and enjoy!
we can always pick ourselves up after falling, can't we?
if things doesn't make sense, don't bother.. leave it..
knowing too much or too well possibly kills u too..

Cheers,
Stranger

im soooo doomed!

Leona Lewis
Better In Time

It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through

Going coming thought I heard a knock
Who's there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realize that I really didn't know
If you didn't notice you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'mma be ok

[Chorus:]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

I couldn't turn on the TV
Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings

If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh
Hurt my feelings but that's the path
I'll believe in
And I know time will heal it
If you didn't notice boy you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'mma be ok

[Chorus:]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you
Yes I will

[Chorus: x2]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to (yes I do)
It'll all get better in time

Monday Blueeeeeeeeeessss!!!
Especially today! don't ask me why if you are a man! u won't understand! =P
Hope tomorrow will be better! =D

The Curious Case of Benjamin Button

I caught "The Curious Case of Benjamin Button" in the weekend and it really sets me thinking about it for days (in my bed at nite, during the day in a car, while eating, basically everywhere!)..

I keep thinking about the characters, the plot, the scenes, the adventures and the dialogue of that show...
I am really really engaged to it!..

I even downloaded the "Ibook" in my Iphone now to read the original novel =P..


The show itself was quite long though.. nearly 3 hours.. or about 3 hours? at some point of time it was also pretty dry.. lengthy.. I sit until my butt also very pain... haha but I still liked it.. brad pitt is simply so captivating as Benjamin Button!!


Okie!... must remind myself it's simply frictional..
Pull myself out into the real world..

here's good old Glam Brad in the Oscars today..

random updates

I passed my exams! hard to believe...
barely... now dunno should take 1 or 2 papers this sem... I think I shld stick to 1 lah... if i go holidays maybe I shld cope with just one better.

lazy me! =S

Happy New Year!

Hello Everyone! Happy New Year!
Why put Louis Koo photo ah? Coz I like him loh.. and he handsome loh... hahas
Anyway wish everyone of my friends 新年快乐，万事如意， 恭喜发财，年年有余！
How's ur Ox year celebration so far? I had fun bai nian, high tea, gambling and catching up with old friends!

Here are some limited photos.. some other places forgot take photos lah..

Furious

Some greenhorns so resistant to changes..

I've had a hard time dealing with these kids who never have had any proper experience elsewhere.

Who are super un-professional yet stubborn and unmanageable.

Bride War premiere

isnt she gorgeous?

Kate Hudson!

Can't wait to watch Bride Wars...

Nono... I'm not saying Anna Hathaway not pretty, she is very pretty! but I just don't like her hairstyle for this premiere, the whole style that day didn't do her justice.

Watch the two pretty babes in Bride War soonz!

Happy New Year

Hey Folks,

Happy New Year!! Its amazing how time passes so quickly.. and I really didn't accomplished much in 2008.. =(

Wonder what resolutions should I make which for once I can fulfill.. LOL

I think I know what I wanna achieve this year liao... ;) shall keep it to myself
May ur resolutions also be fulfill this year and with lots of luck, wealth and happiness!
Happy 2009 again! Cheers! =D

Hows ur Christmas?

I didn't enjoy it.

How about u?

Happy New Year nevertheless! Will be updating more soonz!

corporate and business law

I should have studied law~!! be a lawyer or a consultant or something..

I'm preparin for my ACCA papers and I find the corporate and business law subject more interesting than Management accounting subject. It was the same when I was doing UOL degree papers back then.. I find revising MA painful but revising law can keep me interested and contented... argghhhhh... I wanna be law student!

Okie... kiddin aside.. Studies and working is two different thing lah.. Studying accountancy totally sucks but practical accounts and finance work still can satisfy me today somehow.. just wish there are ways I could make this studyin less painful... =P

How to pass when I don't feel like studyin at all? so distracted siahz........

random updates

Dear All,

Why I didn't post for so long! Guess I've been real busy lately?
With???

oh oh... I flew to Hollywood to watch High School Musical 3 Gala with Zac and Vanessa in Hollywood.. I love the young zest in them! Perks me 100%..

then I flew to Brazil to watch cutie Lewis Hamilton won the F1 GP Grand title for 2008 over the poor Masa who got 1st and lost by 1 miserable point..

Then I flew back to US to have a feel of how the US president election would be like and then proceeded to Congrats Mr Obama on his win. =)

Busy rite???

hehehe...
Of course I'm kiddin lah... Didn't physically go to all those places la but I really was paying attention to these events lah...

And not forgetting Arsenal winning Man Utd at home despite a 2nd choice line-up... =D
A very superb performance by young Gunners..

I've been busy at work. and then studies.. exams are coming early December and it is really freakin me out that I just can't find the stamina to study after a long tiring day at work. Alot of problems for me to solve at work ever since I've taken over this M role. The stress is huge but I'm not going to b depressed about it. Tryin my very very best first until that very day when I can't go on anymore, I just flag loh.. Depressing doesn't help right? Hope this optimism in me will last..

God bless you and me!

p/s: Max Payne is a good movie! keep forgetting to mention..

Love,
Stranger

Burn after reading

I caught "Burn After Reading" in the weekend!

I watched it mainly because of the casting of George Clooney and Brad Pitt.. luckily, I didn't have high expectations... it turns out that the movie was lame! so lame!! hahhaaha.. I had some laughs lah.. and it was slighty different from the typical movies.. because it's very silly!... My partner says that it's not worth the $10 we paid for... I would say give it a GO if u are a fan of George or Brad..

I saw in the newspapers that it's worth 4 stars??? my god... what are they thinking??... are they blind fans of brad and george?? I would say its a 2.5-3/5 stars only...

can't get enough of each other?

despite the fact that my baby lied to me once and made me real furious. At times, is kind of possesive..hot-tempered.. hard to get along with.. hard to please.. .. There's still alot of nice things about my baby! He's nice, supportive, caring, sweet, thoughtful and humourous (kiddish too!)..

have you ever felt sometimes you can't get enough of each other? Even when u guys are always together or mostly together... I do! I do!!! but I'm not sure if it's mutual or not =(

I hope he is!

Post F1 Sg GP blues

F1 was fun! Kinda feel low that it is over so fast!! Entertaining leh!... but basically confusing when u are watching it live... the spirit there was great though =)

anyway nothing much to blog about it but I may still wanna watch it next year! start saving saving saving for next year's Sg GP tickets!!! kekez

Clay Aiken admits he's gay..

http://sg.news.yahoo.com/ap/20080924/ten-people-clay-aiken-5e343d7.html

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

Thanks friends.. for ur well wishes =)

I had a simple birthday and a simple wish

hope simple hopes come true..

I survive my 1st day of work!

hhahahaa... goodness
its ok.. not great not good.. but still ok..

continue to wish me luck!

Sue Fang & Evelyn msn me ask me if I miss them anot?
of coz lah! they are my best friends in Mediacorp and I just parted them on 12th.. wat do u think.. somemore I'm like the super emo kinda person... bleah!

I wished things will jus get better & better.. til then..

Ex-boyfriends

hello!

It's been a while that I wanna say this.. but since I thought being mistaken that way is no big deal, so I simply choose to ignore it.... butbutbut when friends keep jumpin into their own assumptions again and again... it sucks! "Friends" keep mistaking me and making false accuses.. I decided to voice out here.. I have no grudges and is absolutely not avoiding any of my ex-bf(s) k? Why u all like to act cute and pretend I am?? Haiz * 100!

I admit after each breakup, initially, I do feel sad and really do want to get over it by avoiding that person (ex-bf) by all means.. But who doesn't?? (even if U don't feel this way, u should understand how i felt that way too at the initial breakup stage rite?) .. No matter u breakup with pple or pple breakup with u, it's still sad loh!! u guys nvr been through the heartache of breaking up in a relationship meh??

So in some cases, (some ex-bfs only, thank god not all) I choose to not keep in contact anymore at those "initial" stage.. let time wash away the unhappiness, heal the wound or whatever u call it la.. but after awhile.. I moved on! =) and when I say I move on, I really did.. it doesn't matter whether they have gfs or wifes or are single.. because it simply doesn't matter to me anymore!! why?? when I'm not emotionally-attached to this person, I no longer avoid him or bear any past grudges or embarassment.. so stop assuming if u are really a friend.. stop saying: "Aiyah, Ivy cannot/dun want meet XXX.. she hates him or what" this kind of nonsense k... not true not true no true.. dont spread false rumours...

Happy Birthday!!!

Happy Birthday!!!

Weeeee! Someone old liao! 27th liao!! hahahhaha but that someone 好像 don't read my blog de... so say so much here also no use... byeeeeee.......

Felicia's Wedding on 6th Sep (Sat)

My photos are not up yet.. Steal Angela's photos to post first..


the "sistas" being early
prettypretty bride

tea ceremony
typical "sistas" photo.. but I still love it!
Happy Benson

Angela!

my recent purchase

I'm busy with my new purchase =) :

I'm not used to it yet.. think it's my long nails hindering my typing.. hope it gets better...

p/s: Yeap.. I switched to Singtel..

my messy facebook

In case you have noticed my facebook applications have been stagnant.. and I only play around with those few applications (fluff friends!) and didn't add ur various invites... this is why:



1300+ application invites..
that "adding" page takes an awful time to load loh..
40 friends invite which if I miss out pple I really know.. don't blame me.. don't really feel like adding strangers now..

it's kinda messy hor.. mayb I should do some housekeeping.. when I'm free.. hardly..

Bleeding Love

I'm now listening to - Bleeding Love

Closed off from love
I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you're frozen
But something happened

For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone's looking round
Thinking I'm going crazy

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling

But nothing's greater
Than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I'm going crazy, maybe, maybe

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

And it's draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I'll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see

I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Quarter finals, semi-finals...

Poor Feng Tian Wei...



Lost to world no 1, Zhang Yi Ning by jus one bit..
I think she was very very close... considering the fact she won her before just a few months ago...
Look at the scores

Yining (China) v Tianwei (SG) 13-11,12-14, 14-12,12-10,13-11..

So close right!!!

*MAD ROUND OF APPLAUSE FOR FENG TIAN WEI!

Li Jia Wei too, loses to Zhang Yining, few mins ago in the semi-finals... I just went to the TV finance side to watch abit of the match...

Nvm.. She still got a chance to fight bronze... Jiayou, Jiawei!!..

i feel useless

i feel useless.. i cant make up my mind..
i cant stay firm with my decision..
i cant help but whine and whine..
i passed one but failed another of my papers..
i failed to notice some errors i should have at work..

i need a break! A short holiday or a few days leave..
my colleagues are doing so too.. and they seems happier?

Congrats Congrats..

Congrats to Team Singapore for the Silver medal from Women's team Table-tennis..
Was glued to the TV set to watch their live telecast finals performance.. well they lost but it was anticipated.. Silver is still brilliant k? Cheers!

also Congrats to USA's Michael Phelps on his 8th Golden Medal.. Luckily I didn't miss the last pool event, the men's team 4 X 100m medley relay.. Cool! Phelps's Butterfly and Jason's Freestyle saves the day...

Gold or Sliver??

Our table-tennis heroines are going to bring us our 1st Singapore Olympic medal in 48 yrs!
(my daddy just furnished me the story on our silver medal way back at 48 yrs ago by weight-lifter, Tan Howe Liang)

Did u watch this semi's?

I really don't know who's Feng Tianwei before the match (only know that Li Jia Wei).. but wow! she's super duper "zai" loh... means calm and steady la.. Impressive lady!!.. chinese i call it a "yi ming jing ren" performance.. she kept her patience & cool and so as to strike at appropriate times to the defensive guarded korean team.. wow wow.. *Suey! (beautiful) =P

Anyway Congrats to all three of them who did us proud... Li Jiawei and Wang Yue Gu's double was also very well-played..

Woo hoooo!!!

quotes

" Arrow goes forward only after pulling in to backward.
Bullet goes forward only after pressing the trigger backward.

Every human being will get happy only after facing difficulties in their life path

so do not be afraid to face your difficulties.
They will push you forward. "

"Remember you are born to live,
Don't live because you are born!

Don't go the way life takes you..
Take life the way you go!! "

Over the weekend... National Day.. Money No Enough 2.. 12 Lotus..

Over the weekend...

Happy National Day Singapore! Happy 43rd Birthday!..
Hope we will continue to prosper and grow!!
(Starts singing: we are Singapore, we are Singapore, we will stand together...)

Today... In the later hour, hopefully Tao Li can win our first Olympic medal for Singapore!
Do you think we can get it?? **sits around anxiously**

I've caught both Money no enough 2 and 12 Lotus (gala) yesterday.
I prefer the former. I find the 2nd part of 12 Lotus too draggy, anyway too many hokkien songs I also cannot appreciate lah ..

How's ur weekend?

updates: Tao Li got 5th.. no olympic medal for us.. yet...

idealist or realist?

I'm very much of an Idealist.

That's what I found out when I was studying Sociology in U, 2 to 3 years ago..

Does being one makes it more tough??

bad dreams

I keep having bad dreams the last few days.. for more than a week already i think? these dreams are not as disturbing as a "nightmare" but definitely unpleasant dreams..

you know... I dreamt like: arguing with my bf, work conflicts or or quarrels and problems with family, friends or whoever..

I don't exactly remember the details since they are not real anyway.. but i felt so exhausted and sianz after waking up from those silly dreams..
it's like, not enough decent rest since my mind is still so actively dreaming and solving the issues in the lousy dreams.. totally sucks! like not rested at all!..

Yesterday, the lazy sunday afternoon.. I tried having a nap to catch up with the beauty sleep, to my dismay.. I had a bad dream in the first hour of my nap, so being just as tired as if I've never catch a wink at all, i dozed off again and had another bad dream in the second hour! =( extreme bor?
Is that an illness?

Last night, I dreamt of Show Luo Zhi Xiang, ya, the singer who is really none of my business in reality.. I like him but I don't idolise him.. He wasn't even in my mind recently at all until he pop up from nowhere into my dreams.. crazy bor?
oh well well,... it's a bad dream again! it's nothing sweet.. I needed to help him get out of some trouble in it..
I'm sick rite?

I really don't wanna dream anymore...

the real Joker

woah liew!!!

That troublemaker is staying! She quited 3 times and now she still change her mind to stay..
3 times leh! HR do her clearance 3 times le she's still around!!! got once ( the 2nd time) her boss scolded her and she just throw the resignation letter at her boss's desk then pack her things and walk out of the office without giving notice.. she still got the bloody cheek and face to come back.. her acts are so childish and unpro!!!

Then she quit again, realise she not suitable for the job (finally!)... now she withdraw again... despite HR already advertised plus had arranged 2 people came down for interview for her position already.. waste every body's time and resources!
According to her, good prospective candidates loh..
She's such a JOKER man! She should go act in The Dark Knight!

wah liew!!! wah liew!!! wah liew!!!

She's the most irritating, arrogant and unprofessional person I've ever seen..

She's not suitable for the job what!! she's an operational exec yet she wanted to have the job and power or authority of any FM or FC.. of course she don't fit in la!.. create trouble for us only..

Sighz!

Wedding Daze

I've watched..

Exclusive at Cathay..

Ok.. it wasn't great.. but at least it's funny and cheer up my day then =)

Light-hearted romantic comedy

Give it a try folks.. not too bad..

Blood Type

Sheena emailed this to us..

It's SO funny loh... Esp Blood Group AB pple.. hahhaha they are so funny man..

What is ur blood type =P?

Click on it

I wanna see Dunga =(

as usual, no fellow brazilian-fan friends to go with me watch..

why no one share my passion de????... Sads
SG Vs Brazil tonite..
my all time Idol, Dunga (former player now coach) is there leh!
Sighz...

thanks

I must be thankful of my baby who smsed me a really nice encouraging supportive message last nite.
Thankful for the other great things (pple) that happened in my life which balances the "not-so-fantastic" areas.

At times or during crisis, I wished I could predict the future, which could really save me a lot of thinking and also the dilemma I am in now.. but on second thoughts, better not rite? Life being too predictable would probably be even more scary..

p/s: nono.. this has nothing to do with Tony Leung being married to Carina Lau yesterday =P

busy busy bee

Heh heh..

Been so busy, went to the red cliff gala premiere also got no time to blog about it last week..
it is really nice!! like a Asian version of 300? but not really also... hahahaha coz they not so marcho.. they fight with wits more..
really love Tony Leung... Still my number 1 so far.. too bad he didn't come for the gala.. else I would have went crazy.. Chi Lin (Lin Chi-Ling) jiejie was very pretty though.. i like her elegance!
maybe in the future no chance lu... if i really chose to quit, then no more movie galas for me =(

then also went to kimmi's engagement party..
Happy for her and nice catching up with the rest of the sweet ladies..

then then
tmw got pple's son birthday chalet..

and I'm so busy thinking whether to take up the new job offer.. i thought for 2 weeks le still no conclusion... sighz

bless me!

Poor Federer

Last night I watched the "best tennis match" ever..
Nadal beat Federer in the Wimbledon 2008 finals..
His first!
Poor Federer...
It was a GREAT match, and it was VERY CLOSE..

Nadal had a great start after taking two sets and doing everything right while defending champion made quite a number of errors.. Thought he was going to lose in any minute in the 3rd set,
But Federer brilliantly came back later on 2 sets, 2-2 after two tie-breakers (against all odds)
The game was interrupted by the rain and suspended. So poor me was up til 3am!
In the last crucial set where everything (scores, set, points) was a draw, the rain came again!!! forcing me to snooze and miss the "second half of the last set" of the Finals.. it's really anybody's game.. 2nd time suspension.. was already 3am++ so I give up..

In the end Federer lost.. It was still very close.. I must emphasize.. poor Roger.. I support him!

I feel sad for Federer because.. He was the defending champion and after all the stress of defending the title yet losing 2 sets, going to lose.. he still remained calm and collected and came back with 2-2.. I thought that would be the greatest comeback..

I feel sad for Federer because.. his serves are still damn good and had so many Aces so it's a joy watching him play..

I feel sad for Federer because.. he already lost to Nadal in the US open (Nadal already got that title & trophy) and therefore on grass, the (only) place where Federer can always triumph Nadal and anybody, he still lost, which would be a huge blow for him.. no title too..

I feel sad for Federer because.. I don't want him to feel that he's old and cannot win younger chaps anymore (lose in stamina & strength).. I don't wanna see reports criticising him or feel he should retired etc.. He is still good, still world's number!

Roger Federer, we (I) still love you! Congrats Nadal! Thanks for the great match and we can't deny you are good!

work

I got a shock when I heard my superior, the VP has resigned..
together with our dept's senior manager..
seems like alot of drama behind this yet me and others (small fries) have no say or whatever in anything..
why capable pple go? I dont know and cant say also

But theres something else I must say, ive got a troublemaker at work to add on to that misery..

an email from urs truly:

Im so totally annoyed by that bitch
Why she loves to use my superior to “stress” (压) me?
Why all her task mus cc Mr Director and Ms VP to prove how hardworkin and capable she is? She thinks her task super impt meh?
Why she always go behind my back and tell Ms VP things straight and leave me out of the picture purposely only come pretend to let me know when she needs me to do something for her..

WHY!??! BITCH!

Ignore me, im jus ranting =)

Best Regards,
Stranger

haha.. don't penalise me okie? this is the first time I'm scoldin someone bitch so openly and boy, i not at all guilty.. not even one single bit.. she deserves it!

Sometimes cold, sometimes warm
At times sweet, at times blend,
we all had it, we just shared..

what if, it's just a silly faith that was never there?

we walked the roads, we conquer the mess,
we slept we chat we all cared..

before it blossoms, we planned the end,
but now that we had it, it turned bad..